Grief in real Time 

Today is my 42 anniversary. Yes, I’m still married to Lee. I feel so sad and alone. Is this feeling new? No, it’s just harder and more intense today. The sadness and being left behind are always there sometimes more manageable other times overwhelming. Words and platitudes given by others do nothing and often provoke anger and jealousy. Keeping busy, hard physical work are outlets that help-for short periods of time and sometimes not at all. It’s been 10 mths. Is it any easier?  Am I getting used to being alone? Do I cry less? Yes and no. Nights are the hardest- an empty side of the bed, no physical contact are tangible reminders.

Author: plantgirl42

I lost my best friend in October 2017 at 67 retirement for a year and half. We were married for 41 years together for 44. I very active walk, swim, volunteer for 2 organizations. I have 2 adult children and a a 14 dog a lab. On most days I'm ok but others my grief takes over. Being a widow is lonely and much harder than I ever imagined. I hope that my blog will help others that have been left behind. View all posts by plantgirl42