Here it is about to be my 2nd Christmas without Lee. Trying to adapt to being a single seems like pushing a snowplow uphill. All the media hype, triggers wonderful memories at the same time reminds me of my single status, my grief looms larger than ever. It’s a balancing act happiness-sadness over and over like an echo. Carrying on, knowing what to do – stay busy, do for others, sometimes just doesn’t work. Right? Ok, so just breathe and move on, carry on..